Sunday, April 17, 2011

frends?

i dunno who is the real frens for me and who is the liar,
so sad for set myself in dis situation,
actually everything be ok ,but y suddenly will be like dis??
i hate dis feeling,really~
actually i so k wat u all r talking about me,
y all dis happened after some ppl appear in ur life?
do u really think about dat?
i not hate u,just confusing who i shud trust?
she say u r the one to told her all the nonsense things,izzit?
blocked u all,bcox i dunwan u all to track my status,
bcox u all dunno the truth and just simply conjecture wat's going on,
and i dun hope to c wat u r post,it hurt me so much!!!!

Thursday, February 24, 2011

crying~T_T

是我绑得你太紧?还是我管得你太严了?
为什么你要背着我做那么多事?
我很讨厌那种感觉,
很讨厌要面对你的感觉,
很恐怖,很可怕,
为什么你都不想想为什么我会那样对你呢?
我真的很辛苦,
忍得很辛苦,
就快喘不过起来,
你是好,可是你的好是对每个人的,
那我对你来说算什么?
查你查得我很累,
爱你却害怕你伤害我,
我没有以前那么的爱你了,
我也把心里的门锁上了,
不让你进,原因是我不想再被你伤害
只有你离开,对我才是最好的
不要说你爱我,不要又为了将而哭
如果你爱我,你就不会不顾虑我的感受和别人搞暧昧
该哭的人是我不是你,回想一下我为你做了什么事
再想想你却做了什么事来伤害我
我为你付出,你却觉得我的付出是理所当然
一次又一次,很恨自己为什么那么聪明
好奇心为什么就那么强
但是为什么我知道的都是事实
我真的很恨自己!!!!
但是你放心,我不会做伤害自己的事
我会过得比你好
让你知道没有你我过得比以前好,
也让你知道你对我的不认真是错误的
这是我唯一能保护自己的方法~
掩饰的真好,没什么人能看到我的真心吧!
我不会哭,我会为自己守着女生最后一份的尊严!
让你知道你是错的!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

很烦的一天~

可以就这样结束这些荒唐的事吗?我真的忍无可忍了,到底谁说的才是真话??
或许我们不应该是好朋友,这一切都不会发生
你的心里藏着很多道门,可是道道门都打不到你心底的深处
心事都锁在里面,开心吗?
如果你觉得我是错的那很好啊!当面骂我
可是为什么你却不要那样做?连说清楚也不要
所有的人都到你的身边,相信你,你还会是现在这样吗?
父母我们改变不了,可是我们能改变我们的态度
我真的很心痛!!!!心痛得快要死
你可以说我在pretend,因为你永远都看不懂我~

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

sorry about dat,my lovely fren

i knw who u r talking about,
really ntg to say except sorry,
and maybe my appologize is ntg for u,
or maybe u wont read my blog anymore...
but i just want to write down my feeling only,
damn sad now,i lost a best fren,
my wrong???or something happened between us?
actually i want to tell u the truth,
but i failed to do it,y????
i scare dat u wont blif wat i'm doing,
and i knw dat u will unhappy wit dis,
after read dat,i feel very sad and cant stop crying,
i shouldn't do dat in the beginning bcox dats not my business,
just want to lend a hand and dis make someone misunderstand,
but i feel curious,y u want to keep dis such of things inside ur deep heart and din ask me??
it will make u pain,and y u din ask me personally after u knew dat?
and u r angry but u act happy when chat wit me???
can just stop dis all fuxxing things??!!!!!
just ask and tell me,if unhappy,just scold and scream loudly?
i feel so pain after i knew dis all,
wat i'm doing is totally wrong,
and it will hurt u,so sorry for dat,
for my meddlesome,
for my childish,
for my presumingly,
really sorry,
i dun hope u forgive me,cox i know dat it will be a scar in ur heart,
i will treat u as b4,
and i will act ntg happen b4,
but i wont talk too much wit u again,at least u r asking me question~
dats all i can do~
thx god for lettting me know all of ur feeling and wat the way u thinking of me~
really thx!and dis will make me change a lot~
i knw u dunwan to let me know wat u r thinking about and block me somemore,
and it will be a scar in our heart as long as i live,
sorry for all of dis,i know i hurt u,and no use for reparation
only 1 thing i can say is i really treat u as  a best fren,blif me~

Sunday, October 31, 2010

对不起~我不是有心的

不知道为什么就是不开心,也笑不起~或许你心里爱着的还是她吧!原来她对你的影响力是那么大,你可以为了她而流泪,而我却帮不了你什么,只好看着你心疼~很对不起,我不想弄到你也不开心的,但是我就是做不到,什么也补偿不了这种心疼的感觉,这应该是第三次为了你流泪~无言...好像选择不爱来保护自己再受伤害,对不起~

Monday, October 25, 2010

不懂为什么突然间不想理你~

我很生气你那样~不是我得罪你,可是却那样对我~只想好好的跟你谈天也弄成这样~好生气我自己竟然要对你这种行为流眼泪!!!!对我来说我爱你比对不起更有用~